I'm Stepping Away

Snapped this a few weekends ago. We’re a mess. But these are my people. 🖤

Last year I started stepping away from conversations surrounding anything other than compassion and love for others. I decided that I don’t have the time or energy to spend on people who wouldn’t do the same for me. But this has been my whole life... searching for...
Acceptance. Validation in life. Burying my fear of failure. Anxiety. Depression. All of the above.
So far this year though: I’ve never felt more in tune with my self, my heart, and my soul. I’ve been exploring my why’s about everything (talking to @stephdodier has been a game changer for me, beyond just talking about diet culture). Stepping away from anything that felt “yuck” and toxic has been incredible for my mind, health, my marriage, and the mental space I have for my kids on a daily basis.

I’ve struggled with these sorts of things for so long, and self medicated for so long... that I didn’t even know I had anxiety or depression. I mastered the art of being busy, which can be a very dangerous thing... I’m doing a lot better y’all. Like... a lot. I couldn’t have gotten here without therapy and meds (which I don’t plan on stopping). This past weekend, Wes and I started arguing about something (which yes, we do in front of the kids sometimes, because I feel strongly that they need to learn that arguing is normal, things aren’t always going to be “happy” and that’s okay - It’s important to me that they see us communicate, have compassion and forgiveness for each other) - and for the first time in a long time I had a clear thought process and could actually communicate my feelings, rather than being frustrated and overwhelmed with anxiety and shutting down.

Mental health affects everyone in your life, not just you. If you’re struggling, please talk to someone. DM me if you need me. 🖤 Forever thankful for this man of mine who has never judged me on my body, and continues to support my wildest dreams. Don’t ever settle in life, partner choice, career. You’re worth it. Promise.✨