Mother's Day 2019

I’ll be honest. For weeks I’ve had something totally different planned for a Mother’s Day post. But today, I woke up with something strong on my heart that I needed to share.

Most people don’t know this, but both of our girls are rainbow babies. They each came after losses, and I’ll be the first to admit I didn’t grieve properly.

Each time I’ve lost babies, I’ve always blamed myself and I’ve barely told anyone about them. This is a normal feeling to have and miscarriages are so very common, but at the time that it’s happening you can feel so alone and so helpless. And also ashamed.

Today, I’m so thankful for these girls. God gave us Emmie, a true fighter through and through sent here to inspire us to change the world. And Pearl, our “healer baby” I like to call her. She came in to this world a little earlier than expected and what we didn’t know was how healing her presence would be for all of us. It’s still painful to think of all the traumatic moments we’ve gone through with Em, but getting to have the full newborn experience with PJ has been so rewarding. These girls are something special, and they make Wes and I better humans.

I’ve been waiting to share any of this until it felt right. I’m sharing it because I know that somewhere out there, there’s a grieving mama who might need to read this and know they’re not alone.

Sending all my love to the mamas with babies in Heaven and the women who are hoping for a tiny miracle. I know today can be hard.
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