Getting Real About Being Anti-Diet

I know - I know - I know. I used to see the same anti-diet talk and cringe that someone would dare say negative things about something I loved so deeply and put SO MUCH energy in to.
I would think to myself: “this person is never going to be happy until they restrict their diet and eat clean.”
Boy was I wrong.
I was addicted to the high. The high I got off of seeing quick results on the scale and the measuring tape. I was depriving my body and instead of seeing it that way, I was getting praise from everyone around me. They didn’t know better, none of us did.
This year has been all about learning. I’ve learned that I do have issues I haven’t dealt with. I have disordered eating habits I developed in high school and they still haunt me.
I’ve finally learned that wishing my body looked a certain way is so damaging. I’ve been my “goal weight” several times, and none of those versions of myself were healthy, mentally or physically.
I’m not here to shame you about your health journey. But PLEASE know it all starts from within. And diet culture.... it’s a real, actual problem.